"Start with you huh?" I say, giving her a teasing once-over. Truthfully, I know she'll kick my ass, and not just because she has a year on me in specialized training. It's hard not to see Tris' corpse when I look at her; her eyes closed and her body motionless, as still in death as she is full of movement in life.

I look forward to it too, but I also dread it.